Come by my side, hold me in Your arms
Love me
steal me away, dance with me,
Love me
Come my beloved, come find me.

Do you hear my laughter?
My delight in you?
I love you!
I am jealous for you!
Look, can you see my smile?
Do you see the sparkle of love that dances in my eyes when I look at you?
Come find me...
I have created fields of flowers and forests of trees,
Come, my lover, enjoy these presents
Enjoy my presence
Come find me...

I want you
I wait for you
Come find me!

I am being ripped apart.

It was my choice, but alas, I didn’t realize how deep it would go.

I told God to take away everything hindering me from being closer to him.

Well lets just say it’s been painful. Very painful.

Isaiah 6:1-8 has been a life passage lately.

¹ In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple. ² Above him were seraphs, each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. ³ And they were calling to one another:
"Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty;
the whole earth is full of his glory."

⁴ At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke.

⁵ "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."

⁶ Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. ⁷ With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."

⁸ Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"

This whole passage is certainly a favorite of mine. The picture he paints of the Throne Room of God is breathtaking to say the least. One day I will be there, singing right along with those creatures.

When Isaiah sees God’s glory and majesty he is wrecked. He was distraught! Undone. Get the idea? He realized just how unclean he was next to the awesomeness of God.

One of the seraphs flies over and touches his lips with a live coal. It wasn’t the nicest thing in the world – it was pain, burning, scorching, but cleansing and purifying. When the process is done Isaish readily replies to God’s call by saying “Here am I, send me!”

I am being refined. And it hurts.

God has pulled memories that I thought forgotten back into my mind to show me the roots of my fears.

I fear not being good enough. I fear failing God.

I’m still working through those.

God has stripped me down in the area of jobs, money, friends, relationships – anything and basically everything our culture tells us to grab a hold of and not let go.

God wants it.

He’s ripped out my ideas of religions tradition and showed me that he is the same God I read about in the Bible. He’s even been challenging me about my intentions for attending church.

I can say I AM living an Isaiah 6 lifestyle. I pray I’ll be able to answer the call with confidence.